Take A Rest
Sometimes, like now, I just feel like 'running' again. I just want to take a break from my blog friends. Perhaps it's because I am feeling very tired physically, which spilled over to the emotional side of me.
After going through years of emotional poverty, I have come to a point that I try not to feel anymore for anyone romantically. I put aside my emotion even if at times it comes back. I am well 'protected' emotionally and no one can penetrate this 'wall' anymore, I guess.
Well..good for now, as I don't have the time and energy to deal with any possible emotional blue. I will stay put here and take a rest, and focus my life on what is of eternal values.
posted at 8/05/2006 11:24:00 PM |
Name: Bee
5 Comments:
Romantically or sexually?
I think most people confuse them (on the other hand, most people would say my ideas are wierd).
Liking people is easy, hoping that they might be more than just a friend is easy too. The real trick is being able to ignore your impulses and objectively evaluate the person.
I find most people seem interested in only two things: sex and intoxication.
For the first, my view has always been that fidelity is vital, I do not believe it starts when one says "I do", but is instead the way you live you life. As I always tell people, I didn't know who would be my wife, but I knew that I loved her and remained faithful to her until I met her.
As for intoxication, I consider it to be a grave sin against our Divine heritage to deliberately cloud our mind and lose control of our reason.
As I have written before, I knew Sofia was who I wanted not because I wanted to have sex with her, not because I liked being with her, but because I wanted her to be the mother of my children, I wanted her to be my lifelong companion with whom I would share and chart my life's journey. For some, there is no distinction in what I have said - they are simply expressed differently. For me it is like the different between someone who attends church services and one who participates with faith. Externally they may both look alike, in the former, the body is present but the heart is absent, in the latter the faith infuses their soul.
Romance needs not be equal to physical sex, though many find it difficult to separate the two when they are romantically involved.
But for Christians, the later is reserved for marriage, even if they are romantically inolved with someone.
Romance is more on the feeling aspect rather than the act. I have heard of wives complaining that their husbands want sex without romance. *sigh*
It depends on what you understand by sex. There is, of course, actual copulation, however, for me, I look at it from the point of view of fidelity:
"If I were married and I do this (whatever this is) with a person who is not my spouse, am I being unfaithful?" – even if I am still single.
If the answer is yes, then it should not be done. For me, sex is much more than simple copulation, it is the entire physical / emotional bond that exists between two people.
erm... maybe u don't get what i mean.
Possibly. Even though I perceive myself as normal, as I get older, I realize that I am more different from others than I would like to be.
Post a Comment
<< Home