Who Will Be There For Me?
Who will be there for mewhen I need words of comfort?
Who will be there for me
when I need a shoulder to cry?
Who will be there for me
when I need to pour my sorrows?
Who will be there for me
if I were to lose my vision?
Who will be there for me
if I were to lose my voice?
Who will be there for me
if I were to die tonight?
- Bee
My Reflection
I felt alone this whole week.... the one I thought was concerned for me disappeared when I had been so sick... out of sight out of mind?
This whole week, I have been stuck with chronic cough and flu symptoms (fever, sore throat, lost voice, headache, dizzy, etc) plus host of side effects from the medication given to me by various doctors. One of the worst side effects is blur vision. I felt as if I might go blind gradually. The thought of blindness made me worried. I rather go dumb or deaf instead of blind, I thought to myself. Being blind is like the end of the world to me. I wonder how the visually impaired could survive. Perhaps they were born with that condition so it makes no difference to them.
Actually, on Monday (12 Mar 07), I went to see the specialist doctor as appointed. The doctor said that based on my chest x-rays and lung function test, I am not suffering from pneumonia... my lungs are clear. That means the two doctors at the same hospital had different diagnosis about my medical condition. One asked me to complete the 10-days antibiotic, one said no. Who should I follow? Anyway, I just completed it to play safe.
Thank God I am feeling better today, though still coughing. But who will be there for me, other than God?
Thank God I am feeling better today, though still coughing. But who will be there for me, other than God?
Labels: friendship, poem, sickness
posted at 3/17/2007 11:02:00 PM |
Name: Bee
11 Comments:
I was wondering how you were doing, but lately you have been blogging less - either because of overwork, or more lately, sickness.
I am sorry you continue to be so ill. It is a terrible thing to be laid waste and weak.
I concur with you that blindness would be the worst loss. So much of what I do depends on my being able to read. I love reading. It would be hard not to be able to see any more.
Continue to rest, I will continue to pray for you. Giving us little updates doesn't hurt either.
Isn't it terrible when the "experts" can't agree on what is wrong with you. Or worse, can't find anything wrong with you?
Thanks for your concern and prayers.
I actually sent in my feedback to the hospital with 8 questions last Tues. The feedback manager promised to give me good replies to my questions by today.
Well, I got partial replies today (with apologies for the inconsistencies of the doctors).
Now the question is what are they going to do about the fact that I am not fully recovered after completing the 10-days antibiotics and lots of medication? The manager promised to get back to me in the next few days.
So meanwhile, I try to eat well, sleep well, take supplements, and most of all pray that this sickness won't prolong too much.
Thank God that I am able to work from home currently. That helps.
You should believe in the specialist doctor, and stick to him. One thing is that he is a specialist. The most important thing is to show him all the diiagnosis done by your other doctors... so that there is no replicating diagnosis and also, much more accurate in providing you a correct treatment. i'm not a doctor, but seeing it from a 10 years tech support point of view... :P
If there is one sense has to be taken away from me for life, I would have myt sights removed. Then I would be able to see clearly everything with my heart. I'll be able to tell who is truthful to me. I shall feel no sadness. I'll be happy all my life. Because there is no ugliness. And the world would be as colourful as I want it to be.
The panel of specialist doctors (snr consultants) are investigating into the diagnosis of the 2 doctors (MO) from the same hospital. They promised to give me a good reply on their findings and will advice me on my next step, since I still have not fully recovered and yet discharged by the specialist MO.
I am not on any medication now, still coughing.... white phlegm though, but sometimes I still spotted yellowish phlegm on and off. I guess my body is still battling with the virus.
Eyuuu! Hope you get well soon.
The feeling of aloneness is a terrible one.
It seems unfair that some people are doted upon constantly while others live with unwanted quietness.
I often feel that way, forgotten, unless convenient. Maybe I have unrealistic expectations of friends, but, then again, I know people who never seem to lack for friends, for invitations, for attention.
Continue to take care and rest. Unlike David, I have little faith in doctors and experts. They are well trained to respond and treat things that are common, but they are hopeless when something goes outside the norm.
A nice broth, cooked from real bones and meat is helpful (not that instant stuff that comes with noodles). Chicken is the one most people advocate, although, I prefer turkey (more flavourful). One thing you can add is a packet of clear gelatin to the broth. Gelatin is protein and makes the broth richer and more nutritious.
You can also try this expectorant, blood cleaning, lung cleansing treatment. Slice up a few onions, put in a jar, sprinkle with sugar (quite a lot actually) and let stand 24 hours (put it in the fridge). Then take a tablespoon or two of the liquid every morning.
Another thing I like when I am sick it to mash up a clove of garlic with a bit of salt (I use the side of a khife to do the mashing, and the salt help to make it very pasty), place in a cup and add boiling water.
When I have a chest cold, I like to have a hot water bottle on my chest. The warmth brings blood to the chest and helps to relieve symptoms. I leave a leg uncovered because otherwise I would overheat (which is bad).
Fresh citrus fruits often taste really good when sick. Either freshly home squeezed orange juice (not from concentrate) or the fruit itself.
I also like this syrup. In Canada, it is advertised as a Chinese herbal remedy, whether that is true or not, I don't know, but I like it anyway.
Thanks, david... I am getting better now, though still have some cough.
Richard,
You love cooking ya? Thanks for so many recipes for my health. I will try some of them when I have the time.
For your info, Chinese believes that chicken and oranges or citrus fruits produce more cough. So we are to avoid them when we are coughing.
Hmmm ... did my comment get deleted? or did I post it in the wrong blog? Anyway ...
Chicken soup is known as Jewish Penicillin.
Citrus is for the vitamin C. Common drink in Slavic countries is hot lemonade sweetened with honey.
hmmmn.... which part of your comment is deleted?
The one about Jewish Penicillin.
Maybe somebody has a comment that contextually makes absolutely no sense.
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