Friday, March 19, 2004

Through my eyes as a child - poem

Through my eyes as a child,
Play is work and work is play.
This I do from morning till night day after day.
For this is how I learn though I cannot say.
Even if it seems a waste of time to you
Please, please let me stay.
I hope you'll enjoy your work
just like I enjoy my play.

- Bee


posted Friday, 19 March 2004

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Monday, March 15, 2004

Goodbye My Friend - poem

You wrote to me and I wrote to you;
We encouraged one another through writing.
But suddenly you wrote no more,
And I have not heard from you for a year or so.

Surprisingly I received an email from 'you' last Friday.
I was so happy and quickly opened to read it.
But I was shocked and speechless...
I did not know what to say or how to feel.

My feeling froze for a moment then tears began to flow.
That email was not from you but from your brother.
Your brother said that you were gone without a word;
That you had been suffering much pains from your sickness until February.

Then your pains were relieved when you breathed your last.
Your brother asked me not to reply that email
Because your address will be removed.
Your new address is now 'Heaven' where there's no sorrow and no pain.

Why didn't you tell me when you were sick and in pain?
Why must I know it from your brother instead of you?
Should I grieve or should I rejoice? I really don't know.
I have very mixed feelings...

I can't help crying yet I rejoice that you are at a better place than I am now.
Goodbye my friend for now, I will miss you...
But I know I shall see you again one day,
For our permanent 'address' is the same.

- Bee

posted Monday, 15 March 2004

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Thursday, March 11, 2004

God Has A Plan For Me

I have been too relaxed and wasted lots of my time prior to my study school sessions this week. So I decided to look for more challenging work again and sent a job application by email on Monday morning (this week).

On Tuesday night someone form the company called to ask me go for the interview on Wednesday afternoon. I went (in thunder storm) with drenched body that day. ;p. It looked positive during the interview though I was told there were more than 300 applicants but I was shortlisted for the 1st interview.

Yesterday (Friday) I received a call from the same company asking me go for a second interview next Tuesday. It looked even more positive now, but I want to let God decide if I should be working for this company... God knows best. My cell group members are praying for me. A friend even sms me the following verses on Friday after knowing about it.
Jeremiah 29
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD

I felt very encouraged and once again reminded that God has a plan for me in every area of my life. All I need to do is to listen very carefully and open my eyes to see God's work in action. Things don't happen by chance, neither do the people I met (online or in person). They are either a blessing to me or I be a blessing to them.

My Accomplishment this week:

1. Submitted 1 assignment ('final') + 1 assignment 'draft'
2. Learning to see God's plan for me

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When What Bothers Me Is My Problem

When What Bothers Me Is My Problem (from Daily Encounter)

"The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth"
(Psalm 145:18, niv).

According to an old joke which you probably have already heard, a construction worker took a sandwich out of his lunch bag and threw it on the ground, complaining loudly, "Baloney again! I hate baloney." When a coworker suggested, "If you hate baloney so much, why don't you ask your wife to make you something else?" he replied, "That's the problem. I can't. I make my own lunches."

The baloney sandwich can also represent the things that we do to ourselves and keep on doing no matter how much we hate doing them. I believe it was Einstein who first said, "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." Another said, "If we keep doing what we've always done, we'll keep getting what we've always got, and we'll keep feeling what we always felt." And as another saying goes, "Nothing changes if nothing changes." Simplistic statements to be sure, but very true.

I've seen people repeatedly get into toxic and harmful relationships. Others stay in abusive situations, or in positions that are far below their interests and abilities. Others keep repeating the same mistakes on the job or in their relationships and don't do anything to change their behavior patterns. In other words they keep making themselves "baloney sandwiches" that they hate.

The fact is that what we don't resolve we're destined to repeat ... repeat ... repeat--endlessly, ad infinitum!

So how do we/you change. First, be courageously honest and admit that you have a problem and that you are the problem. Second, ask God to confront you with the truth and reality of what you are contributing to the frustrating and even painful situations in which you find yourself. Third, ask God to give you the courage to see and accept your responsibility in overcoming your problem, and where necessary to seek and find the help you need to overcome--even if that means seeking help from a capable Christian counselor.


My Reflection:

Once again I received the above article at my Inbox yesterday. I like the quotations below...
"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results."
One kind of people I can't stand (annoyed rather than hate) are those who like to complain and complain to others about something or somebody but do not do anything to change the situation within their power to do so. One good example is when a driver is driving behind a slow moving vehicle in front of him/her and starts to complain about the driver in front, yet not overtaking it when it is possible to do so. Another example is, if one wants to have better health yet continues to have insufficient sleep when one could help it, then the expectation of getting a better health would never happen. I just can't stand 'NATO' type of people.

"If we keep doing what we've always done,
we'll keep getting what we've always got,
and we'll keep feeling what we always felt."
Similarly, if we don't change our ways of doing things or our thinking, then it's not surprising we always get the same result and feeling the same way. We need to embrace changes and think out of the box to get different things.

"Nothing changes if nothing changes."
Hmmn... very simple logic, isn't it? Short, sweet, and direct to the point!

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