How I wish I were never born - poem

So many unhappy things took place these few days
sweeping me from corner to corner feeling dazed
pent up emotion trapped within as I gaze
at the wall without a word to say

Why must they happen to me, I asked the Lord
why must I be the one to suffer this lot
why don't I disappeared into the thin air
and when others look for me I am no more there

How I wish I were never born
or my first cry were soon gone
or I were given to a good family
then I don't have to suffer this misery

So this is the cross I have to bear
a burden that no one could share
as no one could understand my tear
though some people say they do care

Then I remember God will provide
as He did it to the Israelites
at a time that to Him is right
when they let Him be their Guide

Lord, I need faith to trust and obey
and do what's right without delay
cleanse my lips so I'll know what to say
to bring blessing instead of dismay

- Bee,
originally posted on 6/26/2005

posted Wednesday, 28 September 2005

Decison - poem

Today I made a decision...
one that is hard on me
hurts me very much
makes me cry

My reasons for such a decision...
for someone's good
to know someone well
to know myself

To carry out this decision...
I must be tough
be hard to me
take it easy

Can I survive this decision?...
probably can
with some help
never doubt

I try to switch myself to 'robotic' mode for now... let me be
I should be alright
I think
I hope
I pray

- Bee


posted Sunday, 25 September 2005

Raindrops - poem

reading my "mirror's" blog brings tear to my eyes today
for she is almost like me in so many ways...
but one thing I know, life will not be the same
if I leave everything to God and commit them in Jesus' name.



looking out of my window when it is raining
can be so refreshing and soothing...
gazing at the pool, then the rain drops
that drip pass me from the top
can bring joy to my troubled soul
from my head to toes

- Bee

posted Saturday, 24 September 2005

I Surrender - poem

I SURRENDER!!!!!
That word kept ringing in my thoughts... soon after reading somebody's blog.

WHY? WHY? WHY?
Questions filled my mind... I don't know why...

CRY... CRY... CRY...
Sadness overwhelmed me through the night... I just need to cry...

Then came the assurance from someone dear...
saying, "don't cry, I am here."

But do I deserve someone who is so loving?
After all I am such a fallen being.

The more I receive love so clear...
the more I fear.

"Don't be so negative...
you must believe."

Yes, perfect love casts out fear...
that I am sure.

To You, I surrender O Lord...
please take control of my thoughts.

- Bee

posted Wednesday, 21 September 2005

Letting Go is a Sign of Love - poem

Letting go of things we hold so dear
is a sign of love for someone dear;
for love "is not self-seeking",
but seeking the happiness of another being.

When we give up what's our right
to someone we love so much,
We actually get back more
then what we thought was lost.

- Bee

posted September 17, 2005

I Will Run With You - poem

I was quite upset by something today...
then the drawing came to brighten my day
not only is he 'running' with me
but he's 'carrying' me like a little bee
when my 'wings' are torn and broken
in need of a quiet little garden
to rest and let my 'wings' grow strong
so I can run again when my pains are gone

I am impressed, Tommy!!

- Bee

I was quite happy by one thing today...
my hand moved together with my heart
showing all joy of running with you
carrying you, tenderness and assurance
drying your tears, touching your smile
together in our quiet little garden
spaces everywhere, nurture, grow and be new
ever ready, running faster than before

I am impressed too, bee!!

- Tommy

posted Saturday, 17 September 2005

Forever Is A Promise - poem

Some people can't keep promise.
Some people just say without doing it,
Giving excuses for not keeping that promise,
Or just plainly admit they can't fulfill it.

We're never short of "promise breakers" around us.
How many people could honour their words? Not many.
So to find one who can keep his promise
is really a great find that's not easy.

I guess I have found such a treasure
who keeps me always wonder,
why would he love and care
and has so much to share.

His love can't be measured
as it's priceless beyond compare.
I don't have much to offer
except my gratitude, love and prayers

"Never" is a promise.
"Forever" is a promise.
I believe you can keep it.
I believe you love in deeds.

- Bee


posted on Wednesday, September 14, 2005

My Prayers For You - poem

May God be with you and lead you everyday.
May God protect you and keep you safe today.
May all God's blessings be on your life.
May God be with you and be your Guide.

God be with you till we meet again...

- Bee

posted on Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Each Thoughts of You - poem

If each thought I had of you was a rose
And each rose was my dream of you
My garden would be blooming with roses in the day
My nights would be filled with dreams that stay

If each thought I had of you was a song
And each song was my prayer for you
My mouth would be singing my love songs
My heart would be filled with prayers so long

If each thought I had of you was a wish
And each wish was my hope for you
My mind would be loaded with well wishes that I've sent
My heart would be filled with hopes that never end

If each thought we had of us was a rose
And each rose was our dream of us
Our garden would be blooming with roses in the day
Our nights would be filled with dreams that stay

- Bee

posted Thursday, September 08, 2005